oO[Jian dan Ai]Oo

exam for this semester is finally over! it’s time to wipe off my sweat! the whole group (10 of us) went to celebrate by going to the pub across uts. we all crowded around a small table all chatting w/excitement. mark polished his spanish skills w/me "hola, como estas? tu eres muy bonita!" *blush* we got hungry afterwards & roamed the city for some chow (not jay chow). cat + i opted for japanese for some takoyaki. she goes "oh i love those balls!" mark went with us, i was surprised he admitted to loving japanese/chinese food. he looks like a celebrity that i know, but i just can’t recall who. hmm early sign of dementia. after stuffing ourselves, we walked to a karaoke bar at george st. & sang like retards. hehe..no, seriously, it was a hell lot of fun! ben was hilarious, instead of singing he was muttering & then dubbing what was going on in the music video. the only time there was a problem was when we ordered beer, & because the k-bar was packed they came 10 minutes prior to our "time up". the solution was that each of us grab a bottle & stash it because we were not allowed to carry one around outside. mark had opened his smirnoff & hid it in his jacket then it spilt outside the k-bar. the security at the irish pub nearby was just glaring at him.

~ H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y D A D!! L O V E U H E A P S ~

I got in!! I’m officially a member of the Sydney Dance Group!! I was ecstatic as I was given a pair of ballet shoes by the director. First, we did some stretching ~ballet steps. plie plie plie. I stood nervously holding on to the rail as I did plie & other ballet moves, the director was scaring the heck out of me each time she approached me, "Good.Good". "Straighten up, elongate your neck, point your toes, chest out". Chest out?? Clearly that’s not the only thing sticking out, my buttocks are too! I think they are saying hello to everyone else! I need to watch my food intake from now on, goodbye curves *tears*. I don’t want my chest + buttocks to shrink away like a shrinking violet! Oh no u di-int.

There is one thing I won’t do & that’s the split! Yeouch! Not that we have to, but certainly not for me, thank you very much. Some of the ballet steps were a bit complicated to perform & they were just for warm up. Second was the fun part~ our first dance will be hip hop. The choreographer stole some moves from "Step Up" movie. I loved every bit of the dance & the music has the beat of "Move Your Body". Enjoy now, pay later–>good morning muscle aches!

• [[* el mes 44 para MI MIEL y MI AMOR en mi corazon *]]

  ‘4′ es un numero muy mal y no suerte en china..entonces doble 4?? o dios mio! Canta "Only You", yo la quiero, te quiero mucho.
  Te hecho de meno, esperando mi novio precioso, hasta muy pronto, si? Tu eres el novio que yo qiero y necesito para siempre~~~

for g.L.

i’ll be awake for a while,
everything is dull and gray anyway…
night sleeps but my heart weeps,
twilight hides your smile.

on the other side you’re happy,
i wonder if the world doubts you.
whilst the sea calms and the sky rests,
my side of world leaves me.

i toss and turn and weep
as darkness envelops the ground.
the journey to you is forever gone,
but your love truly i will keep.

by: aysa 16/06/07

I learnt that no matter what,some guys never change. You poured to them your feelings and shared w/them your thoughts, they in turn rescued you from your troubles but kindness was all gone in a blink of an eye. The moment the whirlwind fun is there, they abandon you & leave you in tears. You thought they were different from the others but different they are not. They are all the same, they abuse your feelings and ignore your dreams. But most hurtful, they stomp on your heart and leave a scar for life~ Where is the happiness that you promised me?

i am sooo in love i cannot even begin to express how full my heart is…every minute w/him,i feel my heart grows & then aches every time he goes away.he carries my heart w/him. i wish one day he can come back to my arms once again & be together w/me.sure there are sacrifices as he head off to canberra to work,& i have to get by here in syd without him,studying & working as well.life is hard.missing someone is even harder.

he was here this weekend,then left as quickly as a leaf in a gush of wind.his best friend got married today,oh how we watched on thinking when is it going to be "us"?i love him so much if he’d pop the question to me tomorrow i wouldn’t hesitate to say yes~  but for now,like he said to me,"the reward comes in the end…" i often ponder sometimes what would it be like if i had no heart?then i wouldn’t have to hurt so much missing him each day*i want to rip out this heart of mine whilst he’s gone & place it back when he returns…

i will wait for him forever